Feelings and Thorns
Have you ever been in an unpleasant mood, dear reader? One of those moods where your disposition is yuck and there’s no rhyme or reason for it?
And then, out of the blue you get a phone call, or a text message, and the mood lifts? Like magic; it’s gone. But not only does the mood disappear, you find it has been replaced by a feeling of joy. Now you’re good and happy?
It’s a safe bet to say almost everyone has had those experiences. You could say they are regular occurrences; a natural part of life.
What isn’t considered regular, or normal, is the understanding as to why these moods happen. Where do they come from, seemingly unsolicited and uncalled-for? And why do they then just as inexplicably lift as a result of an ostensibly innocuous text message?
The first thing to understand is that behind the hustle and bustle of the physical the mind never sleeps or rests. Sleep and rest are ego-imposed limitations.
You, the real you, and the one actually running this whole shemozzle but pretending otherwise, are using mind 24/7 to occupy and divert attention from your reality.
Therefore, mind, like the good old sausage factory constantly churns out feelings, fears, thoughts, ideas, noises and anything else that gets your attention. Those yucky moods are one such mental sausage. Don’t try making sense of it, analysing it, appeasing or placating it. In fact do what you do when you see a fat sausage. What do you do? Nothing, you look at it and think, Look a fat sausage. The day you can respond similarly to whatever mind throws up, will be the day your life will change forever.
And the change from yucky to Yay! That too is just another thing mind throws up to continue the charade. A different looking sausage.
You see the feeling perse, is of no consequence. Good or bad it doesn’t matter. The only thing that matters is that the diversion is constant, without gaps, without respite. That you seemingly feel bad one moment, and terrific the next has absolutely no relevance to mind. Look at your mind as a movie projector— it just projects. It doesn’t think, feel, know, understand, like or dislike. Nothing. It just does what it was created to do.
So, the fundamental aspect of the situation is that the next time you get one of those feelings, don’t fight it or try getting rid of it. Do the opposite of those things, immerse yourself in it. Really get into the feeling. When you do that you’ll feel the reality of it. And the reality of it is that it doesn’t actually do anything other than feel like crap.
And why does it feel like crap? Because that’s the label you’ve attached to that particular feeling, and the value you have allocated to it.
It is likewise with the so-called good feelings. Do the same with those and you’ll find that there too all you find is the room vacant sign; both are as worthless as each other. The only worth of these things is in the understanding that everything emanates from you.
You create your own bed of roses as well as your own field of thorns.
Osho said it this way: “If you suffer, it is because of you. If you feel blissful, it is because of you. Nobody else is responsible, only you and you alone. You are your hell and your heaven too.”