How long do I have to put up with this?
That is an age-old question.
It’s a lamentation more than a question really, because, more often than not when one asks that of themselves, or whatever power they hope is listening, it’s usually because they feel lost, in pain or deeply anxious– or all three.
How long do I have to put up with this, comes in other forms that mean the same thing. Please help me out of this. There has to be more to life than this. Why me? What have I done to deserve this? Why am I being punished? I am a good person, why this? I don’t deserve this. Life just isn’t fair.
I have several observations on this question/lamentation.
Firstly, when a person utters, or screams a version of that lament it is in fact a decisive moment in a life. A turning point. A life changer if you will. The reason is when this question is released it means the Soul is ready to return to freedom. It does not as yet know how to go about releasing itself from the ego snare but knows it must. It’s the old, West or bust, determination; I’ll find a way or else. No more of this.
Often times the pledge to free oneself from an unsatisfactory life doesn’t strike the individual as being as profound as it actually is however things start moving almost immediately.
The individual may come across a book, an article, chat with someone, have a chance encounter, get an idea or come across some piece of information accidentally, that will propel them toward the Higher Self or the Spirit if you prefer.
Once the call is made the Higher Self responds instantly. Indeed the whole of Creation rises in support, including the Creator itself.
There is a great little quote from A Course in Miracles that neatly sums up the kind of power everyone has supporting them:
God gives me only happiness.
He has given my function to me.
Therefore my function must be happiness.
In the interests of truth and honesty it must be said at this point that the work undertaken during the transformation process, the undoing some call it, isn’t always pleasant.
There will be moments and times when things get a little ugly, a little painful and more than a little uncomfortable. The reason for that is you are re re-examining events and issues you thought had gone away, hidden so deep a Cat Dozer couldn’t get to ’em. But, that’s not the way this thing works.
Understand also that everyone has things they must resolve and peacefully dispel. You’re not the only one.
Think of any great master you care to. Any of them and I will show you a person who had to undo, correctly solve and resolve their own issues before entering heaven so to speak.
The greedy, the ignorant and the power hungry have made Jesus out to be a 24/7 god or some such. A perfect being from go to whoa. Here’s a single word to all that and to all those pushing that ridiculous line. Bullshit!
Jesus had his issues to resolve. He did so. He then went on to show the world that ego can be overcome and that death doesn’t exist.
Buddha is another great one who had his issues. He too overcame them and became a great, great teacher.
No one draws breath or sets foot on Earth without issues. Overcoming those issues is what existence is for. Ego would have you believe that money, power and fun are the things to strive for. Fortunately everyone wakes up to the fact that those things are meaningless jingoisms.
Reaching enlightenment isn’t easy. There are no easy rides here. Ne free lunch as people are fond of saying.
An American spiritual author and teacher who calls himself Adyashanti puts it this way:
“Enlightenment is a destructive process.
It has nothing to do with becoming better or being happier.
Enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth.
It’s seeing through the facade of pretense.
It’s the complete eradication of everything we
imagined to be true.”
I agree insofar as absorbing the message is a good thing. We need to understand that one does not, and cannot, skip and giggle their way into enlightenment. It isn’t possible.
I also hasten to add that with every block removed, every issue resolved, one moves closer to joy and happiness.
It must be clearly understood that a good deal of the undoing, a good chunk of the path back to heaven, so to speak, is paved with sharp stones and jagged rocks and sometimes it feels like you’re traversing those stones and rocks barefoot.
It must also be understood that with every turn of the track a new vista presents and love smiles and embraces the traveler a little closer until finally Love is all there is and … we are home.